Return of Epic Thursdays

lol good times.

Almost.

Almost done with school. Gotta man up T__T. I'm so tired of school, I have absolutely no motivation this week. I just want to play play play sleep and eat. I'd be a fucking idiot to slack off right now.

Elaine's birthday, the weekend & Hippie hill was fun. Now I have hellluvvvvv hwk to do. Boo.


This post was just an excuse to procrastinate some more.

1. Your presence annoys me.


That's it.

I'm XIX holla XD!

My 19th birthday was on Saturday this past weekend, overall I'm really happy about how everything turned out for a few things here and there, but I shouldn't sweat the small things. Thank you everyone for helping me with planning and driving and contributing. I was freaking out. If you know me, I hate planning cause shit never turns out the way I really want it to, but I guess this time is an exception. Here are some of the pictures at Davenport beach:






I have a month or a little more than a month left of this semester and I'll be done with my first year of college. YAY! I'm so happy and anxious and terribly impatient for the end of this semester to come. I feel the weight of school bearing on my shoulders. I can barely keep up with the workload as of lately, it's such a struggle. I need something wonderful, magical, amazing to save me from the stress of school... something like summer. Even though I'm going to be taking a class or two during summer, it'll be bundles of fun nevertheless I promise you.

Note to self: Must stop taking naps. It's becoming detrimental to my performance in school T__T I can barely stay awake in classes. I'm trying to finish a shitload of schoolwork this week because I am expecting a whole weekend of partying holla! XD. I'm excited for this weekend, even though a small part of me will feel regretful for getting nothing done -_-... shop, party, play, club, have fun :] Okay, I gotta get back to work.

Basis Of My Fucked Up Sleeping Schedule

According to Dr. Maoshing Ni in his article 6 Natural Tips for Deep Sleep he states, "When you eat late, you wake up tired. Your body will be busy digesting your dinner while you are trying to sleep, so you won't feel rested in the morning. Do not eat anything for at least three hours before bedtime. Also, cut back on eating bacon, cheese, chocolate, ham, potatoes, tomatoes, and sausage, especially before bed. These foods contain tyramine, which inhibits neurochemicals like norepinephrine and can cause insomnia. And, of course if you have sleep problems, caffeine should be cut out." Unfortunately every food in that list, with the exception of sausage, was included in my dinner today at the dining commons.

Fail.

A Symbiotic Notion

Read the following for an enhanced outlook on life... :]

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." — Bob Marley

A gift from me to you.
Wake up. Get out of bed and stop hiding under the duvet, no matter how warm it is. You will get nothing accomplished. Put some clothes on. Wear the red tights with the mustard yellow shoes. Arrange the 3 day old curls in your hair. Do something nice for yourself today. Get pretty for absolutely no reason other than to prove to yourself that you’re not worthless and sloven. Go to your favorite record store and listen to the old man’s playlist that usually consists of Howlin’ Wolf and strange 60s Middle Eastern music. Buy yourself your favorite garlic and tomato burrito, and make sure you get extra guacamole. Drive past Emily Dickinson’s house and imagine the lack of life she had. Spend the extra money on your favorite art magazine and plan a trip to Sweden in your head. Sing your favorite songs in your car. Make a pit stop to the reservoir. Collect the last leaves from autumn. Watch the sun sink into the horizon.
Don’t stare at your phone and wait for it to vibrate. Don’t mope. Don’t think about the only men in your life that have belittled you this week. Don’t sit. Don’t wait. Don’t look at the time that you’ve always set to three hours behind. Don’t delay your life even though someone has attempted to delay yours.

I especially feel for this one.
Awkward moments define me. I’d sleep all day if I could. I lack the capability to keep my mouth shut. Yeah, everyone has bad days, but I seem to have more than my fair share. If you don’t like me, don’t act like you do. I swear, it offends me less. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve let people take advantage of me and I’ve accepted way less than I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back, and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.

Mental note: Watch Into The Wild solely because Chris McCandless's wisdom inspires me:
"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun." — Chris McCandless



I'm a quote junkie if you didn't know; I feel like I can take a piece of it with me.