A Symbiotic Notion

Read the following for an enhanced outlook on life... :]

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." — Bob Marley

A gift from me to you.
Wake up. Get out of bed and stop hiding under the duvet, no matter how warm it is. You will get nothing accomplished. Put some clothes on. Wear the red tights with the mustard yellow shoes. Arrange the 3 day old curls in your hair. Do something nice for yourself today. Get pretty for absolutely no reason other than to prove to yourself that you’re not worthless and sloven. Go to your favorite record store and listen to the old man’s playlist that usually consists of Howlin’ Wolf and strange 60s Middle Eastern music. Buy yourself your favorite garlic and tomato burrito, and make sure you get extra guacamole. Drive past Emily Dickinson’s house and imagine the lack of life she had. Spend the extra money on your favorite art magazine and plan a trip to Sweden in your head. Sing your favorite songs in your car. Make a pit stop to the reservoir. Collect the last leaves from autumn. Watch the sun sink into the horizon.
Don’t stare at your phone and wait for it to vibrate. Don’t mope. Don’t think about the only men in your life that have belittled you this week. Don’t sit. Don’t wait. Don’t look at the time that you’ve always set to three hours behind. Don’t delay your life even though someone has attempted to delay yours.

I especially feel for this one.
Awkward moments define me. I’d sleep all day if I could. I lack the capability to keep my mouth shut. Yeah, everyone has bad days, but I seem to have more than my fair share. If you don’t like me, don’t act like you do. I swear, it offends me less. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve let people take advantage of me and I’ve accepted way less than I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back, and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.

Mental note: Watch Into The Wild solely because Chris McCandless's wisdom inspires me:
"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun." — Chris McCandless



I'm a quote junkie if you didn't know; I feel like I can take a piece of it with me.

Post-Spring Break

Of course, the toilet would be clogged after a week of spring break. Who the hell keeps clogging the toilet T__T. I don't give a shit anymore, cause I had an amazing spring break XD.


Spring break was a lot of fun and definitely one to remember for the books :]. But, in terms of schoolwork and studying, I failed miserably on my week off and I'm paying the consequences for it now by studying and cramming today (on my day off) and tomorrow before my physio midterm. Screw you physio, screw you.

I wish I was excited as I used to be for my birthday when I was younger.

Almost There

It's almost spring break, I can't wait! I can finally take a break from this never-ending cycle of schoolwork. It's ridiculous.

I suck at keeping internet blogs nowadays, I never really find the time to update them especially since school is in full swing. Putting up pictures on here take forever, therefore I just end up posting all the recent photos on my facebook.

Life has been chill other than the hectic routine of school, it's nice to finally have some time for myself. I'm enjoying it. I feel a sense of freedom, to really be able to do what I want without having to reconsider. I couldn't careless, as long as I'm happy. There's no sense about going through life in such a bitter manner.

I'm losing a lot of sleep, my sleeping schedule is continuously getting fucked up. The cussing jar Jenny and I made just doesn't seem to cut it, I think we've put that thing on hiatus long enough. I still owe $1.10. fuck.

I have class at 8:30 tomorrow, after my chemistry midterm on Wednesday then I can relax. I'm excited.

I wanna watch this:


PS - One of our roommates clogged the toilet again, and others didn't give a fuck and thought it would be a good idea to shit on top of the clogged toilet bowl. I had to unclog that shit again. I feel like forcing one of their heads into a toilet bowl full of rotting shit.