every night something stranger and more peculiar tends to happen. dreams that propel me to feel disintegrated. i spontaneously wake up in the middle of the night, slowly peel open my eyelids and observe the darkness of my bedroom, then fall back asleep soundly. it gets worse. what does it take to get a good nights sleep? i find my body constantly yearning for sleep, even after ten hours of slumber.
i never write in here.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
coming to an end.
good morning! these past few days since wednesday feels like a big continuous day to me. i've definitely been making the most out of mylast few days in san jose before i move back home for the summer.
on wednesday was jenny's birthday. to be honest, it was such a STRANGE day! i woke up for my last class at 8:30am. came back and slept some more. watched himym with vinh. ate at peanuts with minh, jenny & vinh. chilled. slept even MORE. then her mom took us out for dinner. YUM. we had a bigggggg dinner. came back and went out to celebrate jenny's birthday with a couple of friends at hectors and then played pool. i probably ate again in the middle of the night sometime. i can barely remember that far.
thursday was suppose to be the day we started studying for finals. (eeek!) it was total FAIL. but in retrospect i don't regret it cause it was such a fun day :). it felt like the first day of real summer to me. i went swimming, chilled at minhs, ate at boiling crab (!) yummmm, played sf 4 at minhs then went back to my dorm and crashed. i knocked out so fast :P haha i was so exhausted!
the funny thing is i meant to take a nap at midnight so i would have energy to go out again. instead i slept thru the night and woke up at 12 in the afternoon on friday thinking to myself "hm, i wonder what i'm doing tonight?" then i noticed it was bright and sunny outside and i quickly grabbed my phone realizing it was the next day T__T. fail.
friday was a little more productive. i got most of my chemistry done. my parents came and brought me hella food cause they were on the way. along with that i packed up a few boxes of shit to bring home. chilled at night with friends.
i can't believe my first year in college is coming to an end. it all went by so quickly. it didn't really hit me until branny and johnny were talking about how everything was so different at the beginning of this school year. i think it's safe to speak for all of us; we've all definitely grown a lot. where did the time go?
on wednesday was jenny's birthday. to be honest, it was such a STRANGE day! i woke up for my last class at 8:30am. came back and slept some more. watched himym with vinh. ate at peanuts with minh, jenny & vinh. chilled. slept even MORE. then her mom took us out for dinner. YUM. we had a bigggggg dinner. came back and went out to celebrate jenny's birthday with a couple of friends at hectors and then played pool. i probably ate again in the middle of the night sometime. i can barely remember that far.
thursday was suppose to be the day we started studying for finals. (eeek!) it was total FAIL. but in retrospect i don't regret it cause it was such a fun day :). it felt like the first day of real summer to me. i went swimming, chilled at minhs, ate at boiling crab (!) yummmm, played sf 4 at minhs then went back to my dorm and crashed. i knocked out so fast :P haha i was so exhausted!
the funny thing is i meant to take a nap at midnight so i would have energy to go out again. instead i slept thru the night and woke up at 12 in the afternoon on friday thinking to myself "hm, i wonder what i'm doing tonight?" then i noticed it was bright and sunny outside and i quickly grabbed my phone realizing it was the next day T__T. fail.
friday was a little more productive. i got most of my chemistry done. my parents came and brought me hella food cause they were on the way. along with that i packed up a few boxes of shit to bring home. chilled at night with friends.
i can't believe my first year in college is coming to an end. it all went by so quickly. it didn't really hit me until branny and johnny were talking about how everything was so different at the beginning of this school year. i think it's safe to speak for all of us; we've all definitely grown a lot. where did the time go?
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
A few words
I think this is the fourth time I've clicked on "new post" since my last blog post and have actually successfully submitted a new post. I've been really hesitant to post here lately because I don't know what I can say, or maybe it's better put: how explicit I can really express myself on here.
Over the past weekend I was finally able to chill with Bilal. I miss that guy so much and I don't think I've really gotten a chance to really catch up with him since college has started. Some parts of me really miss how high school used to be. Of course, all the expendable time I was able to use to do whatever the fuck I wanted, but also the people.
After this semester is over I'm determined to go do something extraordinarily fun within the three (or so) weeks I have before I begin summer classes at Chabot. Shitty, but I gotta do what I gotta do. I wanna go to Washington to go visit Audris. I wanna go to Canada. I wanna go camping with friends. I'm so anxious for this semester to end, it's coming... but so slowly. In the meantime though I enjoy being in San Jose.
I'm over all of the shit that you attack me with, you're fucking delusional and crazy. I don't do anything to provoke any of this. So, go on with your little passive aggressiveness, take away your dignity and the respect for yourself. Continue to make up shit, but know the people who matter the most to me do not care or ever did. In fact they find it an annoyance that you continually do this to me, I, especially, resent what you have done.
Over the past weekend I was finally able to chill with Bilal. I miss that guy so much and I don't think I've really gotten a chance to really catch up with him since college has started. Some parts of me really miss how high school used to be. Of course, all the expendable time I was able to use to do whatever the fuck I wanted, but also the people.
After this semester is over I'm determined to go do something extraordinarily fun within the three (or so) weeks I have before I begin summer classes at Chabot. Shitty, but I gotta do what I gotta do. I wanna go to Washington to go visit Audris. I wanna go to Canada. I wanna go camping with friends. I'm so anxious for this semester to end, it's coming... but so slowly. In the meantime though I enjoy being in San Jose.
I'm over all of the shit that you attack me with, you're fucking delusional and crazy. I don't do anything to provoke any of this. So, go on with your little passive aggressiveness, take away your dignity and the respect for yourself. Continue to make up shit, but know the people who matter the most to me do not care or ever did. In fact they find it an annoyance that you continually do this to me, I, especially, resent what you have done.
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