another one.

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why? i felt like it. don't judge :P

Cross Off Things You've Done In Your Life.

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. (some).
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.
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This was my excuse for a new post x] haha. I watched Zombieland today, pretty hilarious. Those clowns freaked the shit out of me though, fuck. ALLLLL baddddd :(. I've been playing alot of holdem on facebook, see me :P. Been wonderful living with my girls in sj. School is going good. Yep... until I feel like posting again XD haha.

hatsukoi shoujo

the collaboration of sounds is beautiful. shiina ringo's "hatsukoi shoujo" orchestra version.

summer is amazing.

mode of sleep

every night something stranger and more peculiar tends to happen. dreams that propel me to feel disintegrated. i spontaneously wake up in the middle of the night, slowly peel open my eyelids and observe the darkness of my bedroom, then fall back asleep soundly. it gets worse. what does it take to get a good nights sleep? i find my body constantly yearning for sleep, even after ten hours of slumber.

i never write in here.

end of 1st year

i'm done with my first year of college! that is all. :)

coming to an end.

good morning! these past few days since wednesday feels like a big continuous day to me. i've definitely been making the most out of mylast few days in san jose before i move back home for the summer.

on wednesday was jenny's birthday. to be honest, it was such a STRANGE day! i woke up for my last class at 8:30am. came back and slept some more. watched himym with vinh. ate at peanuts with minh, jenny & vinh. chilled. slept even MORE. then her mom took us out for dinner. YUM. we had a bigggggg dinner. came back and went out to celebrate jenny's birthday with a couple of friends at hectors and then played pool. i probably ate again in the middle of the night sometime. i can barely remember that far.

thursday was suppose to be the day we started studying for finals. (eeek!) it was total FAIL. but in retrospect i don't regret it cause it was such a fun day :). it felt like the first day of real summer to me. i went swimming, chilled at minhs, ate at boiling crab (!) yummmm, played sf 4 at minhs then went back to my dorm and crashed. i knocked out so fast :P haha i was so exhausted!

the funny thing is i meant to take a nap at midnight so i would have energy to go out again. instead i slept thru the night and woke up at 12 in the afternoon on friday thinking to myself "hm, i wonder what i'm doing tonight?" then i noticed it was bright and sunny outside and i quickly grabbed my phone realizing it was the next day T__T. fail.

friday was a little more productive. i got most of my chemistry done. my parents came and brought me hella food cause they were on the way. along with that i packed up a few boxes of shit to bring home. chilled at night with friends.

i can't believe my first year in college is coming to an end. it all went by so quickly. it didn't really hit me until branny and johnny were talking about how everything was so different at the beginning of this school year. i think it's safe to speak for all of us; we've all definitely grown a lot. where did the time go?

A few words

I think this is the fourth time I've clicked on "new post" since my last blog post and have actually successfully submitted a new post. I've been really hesitant to post here lately because I don't know what I can say, or maybe it's better put: how explicit I can really express myself on here.

Over the past weekend I was finally able to chill with Bilal. I miss that guy so much and I don't think I've really gotten a chance to really catch up with him since college has started. Some parts of me really miss how high school used to be. Of course, all the expendable time I was able to use to do whatever the fuck I wanted, but also the people.

After this semester is over I'm determined to go do something extraordinarily fun within the three (or so) weeks I have before I begin summer classes at Chabot. Shitty, but I gotta do what I gotta do. I wanna go to Washington to go visit Audris. I wanna go to Canada. I wanna go camping with friends. I'm so anxious for this semester to end, it's coming... but so slowly. In the meantime though I enjoy being in San Jose.

I'm over all of the shit that you attack me with, you're fucking delusional and crazy. I don't do anything to provoke any of this. So, go on with your little passive aggressiveness, take away your dignity and the respect for yourself. Continue to make up shit, but know the people who matter the most to me do not care or ever did. In fact they find it an annoyance that you continually do this to me, I, especially, resent what you have done.

Return of Epic Thursdays

lol good times.

Almost.

Almost done with school. Gotta man up T__T. I'm so tired of school, I have absolutely no motivation this week. I just want to play play play sleep and eat. I'd be a fucking idiot to slack off right now.

Elaine's birthday, the weekend & Hippie hill was fun. Now I have hellluvvvvv hwk to do. Boo.


This post was just an excuse to procrastinate some more.

1. Your presence annoys me.


That's it.

I'm XIX holla XD!

My 19th birthday was on Saturday this past weekend, overall I'm really happy about how everything turned out for a few things here and there, but I shouldn't sweat the small things. Thank you everyone for helping me with planning and driving and contributing. I was freaking out. If you know me, I hate planning cause shit never turns out the way I really want it to, but I guess this time is an exception. Here are some of the pictures at Davenport beach:






I have a month or a little more than a month left of this semester and I'll be done with my first year of college. YAY! I'm so happy and anxious and terribly impatient for the end of this semester to come. I feel the weight of school bearing on my shoulders. I can barely keep up with the workload as of lately, it's such a struggle. I need something wonderful, magical, amazing to save me from the stress of school... something like summer. Even though I'm going to be taking a class or two during summer, it'll be bundles of fun nevertheless I promise you.

Note to self: Must stop taking naps. It's becoming detrimental to my performance in school T__T I can barely stay awake in classes. I'm trying to finish a shitload of schoolwork this week because I am expecting a whole weekend of partying holla! XD. I'm excited for this weekend, even though a small part of me will feel regretful for getting nothing done -_-... shop, party, play, club, have fun :] Okay, I gotta get back to work.

Basis Of My Fucked Up Sleeping Schedule

According to Dr. Maoshing Ni in his article 6 Natural Tips for Deep Sleep he states, "When you eat late, you wake up tired. Your body will be busy digesting your dinner while you are trying to sleep, so you won't feel rested in the morning. Do not eat anything for at least three hours before bedtime. Also, cut back on eating bacon, cheese, chocolate, ham, potatoes, tomatoes, and sausage, especially before bed. These foods contain tyramine, which inhibits neurochemicals like norepinephrine and can cause insomnia. And, of course if you have sleep problems, caffeine should be cut out." Unfortunately every food in that list, with the exception of sausage, was included in my dinner today at the dining commons.

Fail.

A Symbiotic Notion

Read the following for an enhanced outlook on life... :]

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." — Bob Marley

A gift from me to you.
Wake up. Get out of bed and stop hiding under the duvet, no matter how warm it is. You will get nothing accomplished. Put some clothes on. Wear the red tights with the mustard yellow shoes. Arrange the 3 day old curls in your hair. Do something nice for yourself today. Get pretty for absolutely no reason other than to prove to yourself that you’re not worthless and sloven. Go to your favorite record store and listen to the old man’s playlist that usually consists of Howlin’ Wolf and strange 60s Middle Eastern music. Buy yourself your favorite garlic and tomato burrito, and make sure you get extra guacamole. Drive past Emily Dickinson’s house and imagine the lack of life she had. Spend the extra money on your favorite art magazine and plan a trip to Sweden in your head. Sing your favorite songs in your car. Make a pit stop to the reservoir. Collect the last leaves from autumn. Watch the sun sink into the horizon.
Don’t stare at your phone and wait for it to vibrate. Don’t mope. Don’t think about the only men in your life that have belittled you this week. Don’t sit. Don’t wait. Don’t look at the time that you’ve always set to three hours behind. Don’t delay your life even though someone has attempted to delay yours.

I especially feel for this one.
Awkward moments define me. I’d sleep all day if I could. I lack the capability to keep my mouth shut. Yeah, everyone has bad days, but I seem to have more than my fair share. If you don’t like me, don’t act like you do. I swear, it offends me less. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve let people take advantage of me and I’ve accepted way less than I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back, and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.

Mental note: Watch Into The Wild solely because Chris McCandless's wisdom inspires me:
"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun." — Chris McCandless



I'm a quote junkie if you didn't know; I feel like I can take a piece of it with me.

Post-Spring Break

Of course, the toilet would be clogged after a week of spring break. Who the hell keeps clogging the toilet T__T. I don't give a shit anymore, cause I had an amazing spring break XD.


Spring break was a lot of fun and definitely one to remember for the books :]. But, in terms of schoolwork and studying, I failed miserably on my week off and I'm paying the consequences for it now by studying and cramming today (on my day off) and tomorrow before my physio midterm. Screw you physio, screw you.

I wish I was excited as I used to be for my birthday when I was younger.

Almost There

It's almost spring break, I can't wait! I can finally take a break from this never-ending cycle of schoolwork. It's ridiculous.

I suck at keeping internet blogs nowadays, I never really find the time to update them especially since school is in full swing. Putting up pictures on here take forever, therefore I just end up posting all the recent photos on my facebook.

Life has been chill other than the hectic routine of school, it's nice to finally have some time for myself. I'm enjoying it. I feel a sense of freedom, to really be able to do what I want without having to reconsider. I couldn't careless, as long as I'm happy. There's no sense about going through life in such a bitter manner.

I'm losing a lot of sleep, my sleeping schedule is continuously getting fucked up. The cussing jar Jenny and I made just doesn't seem to cut it, I think we've put that thing on hiatus long enough. I still owe $1.10. fuck.

I have class at 8:30 tomorrow, after my chemistry midterm on Wednesday then I can relax. I'm excited.

I wanna watch this:


PS - One of our roommates clogged the toilet again, and others didn't give a fuck and thought it would be a good idea to shit on top of the clogged toilet bowl. I had to unclog that shit again. I feel like forcing one of their heads into a toilet bowl full of rotting shit.

I am.

I am increasingly grateful for the things my parents do for me. I am extremely happy that I have successfully endured this week to my satisfaction. I am also gradually discovering new things about myself I never knew, I love this feeling...

Play then Study

I've been so bogged down with so much schoolwork. I'm totally fucking myself over for this massive wave of exams coming my way. Fuck... This weekend is exactly what I needed before I get my act together and study my ass of for the next two weeks. Pictures from this weekend:

1.2.
1.here you go anthony, my cocoa-powder-chocolate facial haha XD
2. jubert pretending to be camera shy... yet he ends up posing for the next 100 photos.

3.4.5.
3. me confessing my love for jenny, haha.
4&5. jubert being nerdy.



6.7.
HELLA photos of me and jenny, why do we always do this?!
6. HAHA. good job jenny.
7. me being smooshed and having no eyes XD haha

8.
8. my valentines :]

9.
9. i want an xbox now, just for call of duty T__T

10.11.
10&11. X__X shut up.






12.
12. minh practices beer pong 24/7.